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Almost 30

Today I turn 29 for the very first time! I celebrated last night with my family and after a delicious meal, decadent chocolate ice cream cake, opening gifts, many glasses of wine, a few rounds of Texas Hold 'Em, and fighting it out with the biggest mess of yarn vomit ever until 1:30 AM, I am sleeeeeepy.

As I bring week 4 of stay-at-home-momhood to a close, and as I enter into my 30th year, I am feeling a hazy nostalgia for the dreams I held for myself in my young adulthood. Ten years ago I would have never guessed that I would quit my dream job to stay at home and raise my beautiful daughter. By 29, I thought I would be married and have a successful career, but I always thought that I would work, even when I had small children. I admit, seeing my sister come through the door last night all decked out in her business attire did spark a small ache in me. But I'll take that occasional small ache over the deafening rip I felt in my gut when I had to leave my girl all day, even to be at a job that I loved.

While it would be nice to think that I had it all figured out by the time I was 20, I have to admit--I am so grateful that God and Addie had other plans for me! I don't know what the future holds and I've never been happier. Standing here, in this unknown territory of 29, unemployed and taking each day as it comes, I can't help but feel an incredible peace. 30, with a laugh and a skip (and another cup of coffee), here I come!

2 comments:

Kate said...

You are definitely NOT unemployed! You have the most important job EVER!!! Don't ever demean yourself (or Addie) by reffering to yourself as 'unemployed'. Tsk tsk!
;-)

sara said...

You are correct. Although I think there is room for debate on the terminology here... I definitely work, but I am not collecting a paycheck... That could qualify me for intern status. Am I an intern in my own home??? Maybe. I do feel like I'm always in training. Hmmm... perhaps I'll explore this further in a post. ;)