Almost 30

Today I turn 29 for the very first time! I celebrated last night with my family and after a delicious meal, decadent chocolate ice cream cake, opening gifts, many glasses of wine, a few rounds of Texas Hold 'Em, and fighting it out with the biggest mess of yarn vomit ever until 1:30 AM, I am sleeeeeepy.

As I bring week 4 of stay-at-home-momhood to a close, and as I enter into my 30th year, I am feeling a hazy nostalgia for the dreams I held for myself in my young adulthood. Ten years ago I would have never guessed that I would quit my dream job to stay at home and raise my beautiful daughter. By 29, I thought I would be married and have a successful career, but I always thought that I would work, even when I had small children. I admit, seeing my sister come through the door last night all decked out in her business attire did spark a small ache in me. But I'll take that occasional small ache over the deafening rip I felt in my gut when I had to leave my girl all day, even to be at a job that I loved.

While it would be nice to think that I had it all figured out by the time I was 20, I have to admit--I am so grateful that God and Addie had other plans for me! I don't know what the future holds and I've never been happier. Standing here, in this unknown territory of 29, unemployed and taking each day as it comes, I can't help but feel an incredible peace. 30, with a laugh and a skip (and another cup of coffee), here I come!


Kate said...

You are definitely NOT unemployed! You have the most important job EVER!!! Don't ever demean yourself (or Addie) by reffering to yourself as 'unemployed'. Tsk tsk!

sara said...

You are correct. Although I think there is room for debate on the terminology here... I definitely work, but I am not collecting a paycheck... That could qualify me for intern status. Am I an intern in my own home??? Maybe. I do feel like I'm always in training. Hmmm... perhaps I'll explore this further in a post. ;)