A little rest: another step towards balance

Ever since I chose my step from last month, I secretly wondered if I was really going to do it or if I would let my goal fall through the cracks once again. After all, I have a pretty good list of things that could easily be considered a higher priority than trying to get a book published so I could have let it go... Right?

Wrong. Even though, as June came to an end, I saw my list of to-do's growing longer and longer I finally came to the conclusion that pushing this aside was simply no longer an option. So with the help of my trusty companion:

I did it. I sent off my first query submission to a small agency in California. Now I get to play the fun waiting game of finding out whether or not they would like to see more. As if the next 30 days won't seem long enough trudging through the end of this pregnancy! With hope and prayers, perhaps I will receive a positive outcome, but if not I am prepared to continue moving forward.

As the saying goes, the first step was certainly the hardest. But in the end, I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and hit the "send" button on my email. Now, it is out of my hands. It feels really scary, but really very good.

A big fat check mark complete for June and it's onto July!

Amidst all of the plans, lists, excitement and occasional chaos going on as we prepare for the expansion of our family, it was pretty easy to set my goal for this month: I need to rest. The other day, I planned to vacuum the entire house. As the hours went on it became very clear that my body just didn't have the energy. I asked Curt if he would take care of it for me and he was happy (at least he seemed happy, and that's good enough for me) to oblige.

Later that evening we talked about how it's getting to be that time. Time at the end of the pregnancy when I need to recognize my limits and allow others to help me. This realization nearly brought me to tears as I hate having to rely on people, even my husband, to assist me with getting basic things done, like cleaning my house.

I've always had trouble asking for help and having that virtue forced upon me feels pretty rough. But cloaking it in the reality that soon enough I will be a mother of two and busy as I've ever been in my life, perhaps it isn't so bad. So as lame as it may sound, for July, rest it is! My, I hope I can manage. :)

In the spirit of my new goal, I'm going to take a few days off from this space to enjoy some time away with my family. I know I've been slow to respond to comments and I promise I will get back on track with that very soon. In the meantime, thank you for bearing with me!

Enjoy your days and I'll see you back here on Friday with updates from our week!

Head on over to which name? to see what Nicola and others are doing to find
balance this month. Feel free to join in if you are so moved. You won't regret it!


Us said...

I'm proud of you for sending matter the outcome!!! And I just read your bit about your cucumber plants on your sisters away blog. If you haven't already, you may want to check the local agriculture extension office at UK. Here at the UofArkansas, you can bring in samples of any plant during working hours and they'll look at them under a microscope to find out what's wrong. I finally did that and discovered that we have spider mites all over half of my stuff. I still can't rid of the little boogers, but now I really do know what's wrong. (I thought my one tree had this horrible fungus and it was really just the spider mites). So check it out!

And we also have a TON of those stinkin' wolf spiders around here. I mean...everywhere. They're ridiculously huge, but harmless (unless they find their way in my house where they will surely die).

Kerry said...

Congratulations Sara! What a big step! Good for you to recognize that you need rest. You deserve rest! It is so, so hard to give up those responsibilities to others. I struggle with it all the time! Take care Mama!

Nicola (Which Name?) said...

That is HUGE! Congratulations!
I am impressed.
And that is excellent that you are recognizing your limits!

sara said...

Thank you, ladies! I have been on pins and needles waiting for a response, but it really helps to know I have people cheering me on.

Jenn, thanks for the info. on the UK Ag. Dept. I will look into that. The cucumber beetles are starting to move into our watermelons and Mama won't play that game for long! I can let go of my cukes without tears, but leave my melons alone! (tee hee)